The title of this blog has some personal meaning to me. If you know me well, you know I'm not typically a fan of being wet. And particularly because of large bodies of water. So, swimming in a sea of confusion shows you just how much I likely despise the current state in which I am.
I told a close friend a while back, "I'm not sure if I'm missing the person more, or the idea of being in a relationship more." The thing is... I'm still not sure. Maybe because they're both a similar ache. Maybe because they're inner related.
I don't know.
I feel like one year later, I'm too old to go back to the way things were before him. Maybe I was too old to begin with. Maybe I'm not old enough. Maybe I'm rambling on like a pompous, arrogant... you know.
And maybe I'm not. I really, honestly feel that in the past year, I have grown leaps and bounds. I was in a stable, healthy relationship. I was promoted at work, twice. I sorted out a lot of things in my personal life. I've made a lot of peace with my family. I'm excited with where I am headed.
I'm just wondering now if I want to forge ahead... alone.
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