09.27.10: Early Morning Ecstasy

I suppose "ecstasy" really wouldn't be the right word.

...i just wanted to alliterate. :D

Anyway, I haven't written in a while, partly because I've been so busy editing and working, and editing... and working... and... you get the picture.

However, I don't mind. I'm actually quite proud of the progress I've made on my own. I haven't taken any classes. I haven't had anyone sit down and show me how to do this. My work has come from my own initiative of reading, finding tutorials, and just good ol' clickin' around till sumfin' works. Haha...

But like I said, I'm rather proud of my progress and hope that others will see that and be equally astounded. ;)

Ps- I'm totally catching a certain someone's emoticon addiction. Thanks... ;)

Continuing, you may have noticed (all .5 of you who read this) that I said a "certain someone". Why yes. There is a certain someone. And I'm absolutely crazy about that certain someone.

And you know what world?

For once, for one glorious time...

...he's crazy about me, too.

And right now, that makes everything right in the world.
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Changing pace a bit, I must say, I'm getting rather apprehensive about this job situation. I really need to find something. And soon.

I know my family, especially my mother, would hate it, but I really am looking for a big change. Yes, I enjoy Austin. Yes, I enjoy DFW. But, I've lived in Texas all my life. I feel like there's just so much more world out there that I want to see. And even if I go out, travel, and fall flat on my face, at least I can say that I tried. At least I can say that I went. I lived. I explored. I did what I wanted to do while I was young.

I've never been a highly impetuous person. I like planning. I like knowing what's going to happen. But sometimes, every once in a while, I get these impulses. These extremely strong wanderlust impulses. I want to move. I want to go. I want to get a little crazy and live a little.

It's probably not the smartest idea. It's definitely not the safest. But, darnnit, it's what I want to do!

I want to move to California. Even if it's just for a year or two. Just to try my hand out there. Who knows? I might love it. I really did enjoy my visit there; the people weren't bad. The weather was nice. There was absolutely SO much to do, and see, and be a part of.

I want that.
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You know, usually, when I can't sleep, it's b/c I've been online for hours, I'm wound up, or I've got too much on my mind.

Tonight, it's the latter.

I'm at a rather crux in my life, and for once, I don't know where I'm going.

And THAT my dear friends scares the **** out of me!