05.24.10: Early to bed, Early to demise

Hello, 7:30 AM.

Here I am a week and a half from graduation and still moving oh-so-slow on the job front. I finally took the time, though, last Friday to get my resume critiqued and worked on. It was really productive and definitely put a lot of my nerves at ease on that front.

I have to say, though, it's hard writing some of this stuff, especially cover letters. Growing up, you are always taught to be humble, not self-centered or a braggard. However, when it comes to these things, you are selling yourself! You HAVE to get up and pronounce your greatest feats, achievements, and recognitions. It's difficult. I don't want to come off as full of myself, but at the same time, I don't want to sell myself short to these employers. Where is the line?

Continuing, this whole graduation/summer thing is already tiresome. I HATE CHANGE. I'll tell you that right now. Stability is comfortable and convenient. But as I know, the world keeps spinning, and so does my head. People go in and out the revolving door of my life. I wish it wasn't that way. And fortunately we have the technology in today's time to help keep in touch. But, you know, it's just not the same. Speaking to someone via Skype isn't the same as in person. On Skype you can reach out and touch them, hold them. The personal, physical connection is gone.

I'm scared. As always. I wasn't made for this "growing up" stuff. Not my cup of tea.

I don't really know what else to say as that is my life at the moment. Job searching, being nostalgic, being sad friends are leaving, being sad I may be leaving, not knowing what the future holds, and watching ungodly amounts of YouTube.

So it is, so shall it be.