07.28.09: So many changes, so little time

I was "kicked out" of my house. Sort of. I was looking for a new place. And now I have one.

Sometimes I wonder if when I get married (assuming that event will take place), I'll share a room with my husband? I don't know... I haven't decided.

I digress...

So, I went to my "boss"'s house tonight for dinner and was really just amazed at how cute her and her husband were! I kept wondering, can I ever find someone that after several years of marriage, two kids, and living apart for a time because of work, he'll still be up for giving me a piggy back ride at 11 PM at night just for the heck of it? I hope so... <3

I've been very inspired to write music lately. I don't know what it is. I love it. I love creating.

I love tweetdeck.

I'm excited about applying to Ph.D programs. Granted, I'm extremely nervous and have great feelings of inadequacy, but we'll see... We'll see...

This is definitely a stream of consciousness blog.

I love the callouses on my fingers. They remind me to play everyday. Do what makes me happy.

I think the baby tonight could sense my distrust for his kind and kept quiet because of that. It was nice... props to him.

I'm worried. Worried about a friendship. I like it the way it is. I don't want it to change. I'm afraid there's going to be an explosion soon. There was one. A long time ago. And I don't want it to happen again. I don't know if the building could stand another.

On a more logical and realistic note, I'm quite excited to be going on a little weekend getaway! Thursday I leave for Brownwood to check out the Gala of SpecTra at the Texas 4-H Conference Center. After working there for two summers and experiencing that evening twice, I cannot wait to go back and be there for my brother's first time! I'm also excited to see some of my friends who are still staffers there and even an ex-camper that I taught at SpecTra my first year who's now a staffer! Haha!

After that, it's time to head to Abilene for a wedding of two former staffers who kinda met at the 4-H Center. Funny isn't it? Two summers in a row with weddings from former staff members. Oh Lake Brownwood... How I loathe and love thee!

That's all I really feel like divulging right now. Oh wait one more thing. I'm going to be vague to save a little, but why is it that I tend to crush on guys I know I could never be with? As in a long term relationship? Ugh...