I've decided to keep this as an online journal. I know I don't have many friends that keep up with me on myspace anymore, so that blog seems quite pointless. Actually, as a whole, I don't have many close friends that keep up with my ramblings. But there are a few on here, or at least are starting on here, so I've decided to give it a go as well.
I really do enjoy writing and the release it gives me. I've always been particular about my word choice and, having become more acquainted with the concept of "thinking before speaking," I enjoy writing as a way for me to be extra careful.
Getting down to the nuts and bolts of it, I haven't quite decided how I am going to format this blog. Knowing my past style from both facebook, myspace, and xanga, I think it will be a blend. Whether it be musings, rantings, poetry, or whatever else seems to strike my fancy at the time. Like I wrote earlier, I think this will be more like a journal than anything.
To continue on, I believe I'll write about recent times. There's been a lot going on to talk about. First off, business. I'm still working at Science Spectrum and tend to enjoy it a lot more than I used to. Things are much more efficient and managerically (if that's even a word) sound than used to be. Granted, not perfect by any means, but still improving. The huge thing right now, though, is Critterfest! It's the largest event we hold each year in which thousands of people come to see animals ranging from elephants to camels to tigers to crocodiles and so much more! We have plenty of fun activities for families to come out and experience the closest thing Lubbock has to a zoo! Haha! However, this means that we have ridiculous problems in staffing, managing that many people (and animals!), and any other problems that might arise with that large of an event. We'll see how this year goes...
Also, I'm interning with the Lubbock Moonlight Musicals. I'm really wanting to get my hands dirty in the process of helping them out, but finding it's much more difficult than expected. However, what I have done has definitely been fun, but I'm hoping for much more of a challenge in the next two months. From this has come some great new things, though! #1.) I've met the lovely gentlemen playing Buddy Mr. Matthew Wycliffe and Mr. Dean Elliott. They are fantastic! I've got to spend time with them at a few social functions and ate dinner with them one evening at Abuelo's, and I must say that I absolutely adore them! They're so sweet, kind, and have fantastic senses of humor. I genuinely hope that I get to know them both more before they must depart for home. #2.) I've begun to look into studying young nonprofit development as a Ph.D. It really interests me and I think it would really be a benefit to society (if I can learn anything and share it!). I've looked into a program at UT and think it would be a great option for me, providing I can get into the department. They typically let in 4-6 students a year, so there's stiff competition. We'll see!
As per my theatre life, I've just opened Cheaper by the Dozen. While I think the show is definitely good quality for the children's/family productions here, it's still not the kind of show I've been longing to sink my teeth into lately. Grad school has really put a damper on my ability to do productions and it's really getting to me. All of my academic studies are quite things I love, but honestly, theatre is my PASSION. There's no where else I get that thrill or satisfaction. Burdened with my sense of practicality, I fear I shall never pursue this that I care for so deeply. But alas, such is the story of my life.
As for my personal life, it's been a nut house lately. PAC has become closer than ever! (AND I LOVE IT!) There's nothing more fun than the evenings of spontaneously going to a park and reliving the glory days of climbing rocks, chasing one another up a slide, or competing for the highest swing. Or randomly singing to showtunes at full blast until 3 AM. Or driving out to the middle of nowhere and dancing in the road as the sun rises. These are the memories that will last a lifetime and make the friendships we've build never fade. I love these guys and wish to shout it every time I see them!
Also in the personal realm, I have a new "beau." It's definitely not something I expected. We're taking things slow, which is definitely a nice change of pace. Neither of us is really in a position right now to think too far ahead. I've only got another good year in Lubbock before I'm likely off to start a new phase of my life. He's just beginning on a new journey in his. It's new an exciting, but so difficult in the same breath. I'm a free spirit. Being tied down is actually quite hard for me. As much as I moan and complain about never having someone, as soon as I do, I begin to delve into the "what if's." What if he's not really the one? What if we don't agree on this one thing that is very important to me? What if some horrible happens? What if? They're a terrible plague and curse to my life, but one I've always had to endure. I think that's one of the reasons I tend to stay single. I'm too afraid of commitment for fear I'm committing to the wrong person. Nevertheless, I trudge through hoping and praying that I'm being guided in the right way.
As this is getting quite long, I must remind myself of why I write. It is a catharsis. It is a message. It is my life. It is my words.
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